Posted by giveawayboy on February 29, 2004 at 16:02:10:
In Reply to: sorprendido y agradecido but thinking posted by Març on February 29, 2004 at 00:58:25:
Març: ~I am being honest when I say that I saw this unexpectedly and was gonnaa post but Steve beat me to this first. I wanted to say something along the lines of that you guys and steve have got me thru to now, that is Im still here now because of you and I thank you for that. I mean that now for each of you that are still here in this board, thank you for putting up with my moodiness. You know that I told Bill that I can't find peace but I'll say I love Jesus and I think he loves me, yet sometimes I doubt everything, but I keep hoping. I AGREE WITH BILL as seeing nothing but rich fat people in the church, where's the love of the poor, but maybe I found out they're not as happy as I thought, all I ask is pray for my mom, she has breast cancer now,I dont want Him to take her, take me in her place, and I ask Jodi to pray for me, I anne dmore than her, I know she's with God now. thank you. oh yeah, I do want Joe's email or cell phone. peace, Març
Thanks for sharing this with us Març. I think that this board might be my only interface at times with other Christians. I love it for that reason. It's good to know more about your own struggles and that you are hanging on. Right now I'm reading a book called PRAYERS FOR BOBBY about a gay man who felt really disconnected to the Church (I can identify w that perfectly, only I do feel a connexion). His mother and family kept telling him how he needed to 'change his ways' and become a better Christian. They only meant well, but it really hurt him since he never felt good enough for them or other Christians. He killed himself. You can read more about it in the book. Still, I'm not suicidal or even too concerned with the whole gay/Chrisitan confusion thing. That will never go away. I have to learn to live w that. Still, I feel that there might be others out there, who maybe even secretly read this board who might be suicidal or have thought about it and don't know where to turn. There might even be others who just feel very disconnected but don't know how to reach out. I wish I knew the answer for them, but just reading this board might help them. I really believe in Peter Pan's idea of 'through the cracks' where he wants to find those who are falling through the cracks of the church and help them to know they are not alone. God is here. And, Març, the other night, spending a few hours with me, and last night, calling me on the phone, well, for me, that was the Church. Thanks. Please pray for me though brother. Also, I pray for Jodie too. We've all been through alot and I feel that perhaps the Win's and Jodie's in our lives are looking out for us. Also, the people who we all know who no longer attend church or come around are still in our hearts and we can pray for them too, wherever they are. I don't think it matters. We still think of them and carry them in our hearts. I suck at keeping in touch as many of you know. Forgive me. Today I thought about so many: Quequel, Suzie, Tim, Rob Christian, Nate, Katherine, Chris P., Rechlin, the Gribbins, Donner, America, Dora, Carl, Tremper, the Merediths, Ashley and many more.... They are always on my mind.
With love, Bill