Posted by Terry on May 14, 2004 at 16:35:59:
Last night I had a nightmare. I dreamed I was walking through the woods of a house near where lived when I was a child. I was walking my neighbor’s dog Sundance. Suddenly Sundance took off and ran away. I started to run after her when my father blocked my path and started yelling at me. He said things like, “See, even the dog doesn’t want to be around you.” He then began to change into a lot of different people who kept yelling accusations at me. Calling me all kinds of names like, dumb, useless, sinner, unlovable, worthless…. They kept coming faster and faster throwing all my sins and shortcomings in my face.
I woke up sobbing. Guilt, depression and self-pity were strangling me. I slid to my knees and started to pray. It seemed that my prayers hit the ceiling and fell to the floor. I began to sing Psalm 51 and thoughts like, “God can’t take away what he has never given you. He can’t cast you away if you were never in His presence….” I began to pray again and sing. “ O, my Lord show me your glory…”
I must have fallen asleep because I had another dream. I dreamed God came over to me and called me and said, “Terry, peace be still.” All the emotions and things just stopped. Then he said, “ You are my child and I am your Father. I love you.” He then picked me up and just held me. I woke up this morning on the floor with Buddy snoring beside me. Isn’t amazing that God meets us where we’re at even in our sleep. We have such a great God who cares about us so much; He even cares about our nightmares. I am overwhelmed and just wanted to share it with you.