Posted by chris on August 24, 2004 at 01:12:03:
hello...
i miss you all.. i havent posted, because i was afraid to i quess.
i wanted to but didnt..i doing well. been actively going to church, God has been so real lately to me.
lately all i can think on is how much he loves us..it isnt what you do, it is who you are in Christ.
i dosent matter if you play an instrument preach, work a 9-5 job..or whatever..Jesus is Jesus and he loves me regardless.steve i remember so many times you said, what is God showing us..he has been showing that he loves me. i dont need to prove anything to anyone, he loves me. when i do things for him it isnt my identy it me just doing things for him. i been realizing how shallow my heart is, i been realizing how easy it is not forgive. even me. it has nothing to do with identy, it isnt about me.
it should be about him..he created he died he rose, he calls he listens he forgives. when i get get stuck in identy i begin to loose sight of him. when i do things it should be because i honestly want to touch some one. and not what will i get back in return. whose approval, whose acceptance, whose temp love. Jesus's love is eternal.. over the last few years, so many good memories have come out.somany examples. steve your reaching to me has landed on good soil..it took a while, but there is fruit because of you..Jesus has used you in my life even to today..i am glad we met and i am glad you did not give up on me..you are a very good farmer. thank you..for teaching never put a man on a pedestal. thank you for challenging to dig deeper. thankyou for not letting just take the easy answer.
thank you...thank you for giving the honor of playing in a worship band. preaching on sunday, leting me fall on my face and trying to help me get back up. thanks for the christmas card. the bedroom in your home. the first pint of guiness, thanks for helping me understand sound. thank you for preaching on being undone. thank you..
i do miss you all and i have missed many a conveince to see you all. as i said i m saying hi to my far away family..
maybe i will see ya soon
chris