Posted by PS on October 17, 2004 at 23:54:36:
In Reply to: oh yes, those nuggets... posted by giveawayboy on October 17, 2004 at 04:11:40:
Wow. Thank you for kind words, J & B. I have a really hard time knowing how to respond to those things. (Is it OK if I don't? Thanks.) I was thinking about what it would be like dying tonight, when you know the time has come, and you know that it is your turn, and you say, "OK, this is it, this is my time, and I always knew it would come, but here it is, the time for me, and I am over." It all seemed so simple, you know; there was nothing to figure out, and no time to do anything, just no time anymore at all. I wondered what would be there and what I would know or think or believe or feel. Would I leave knowing something more strongly than life, or knowing nothing, as all knowing died with me. And then I thought of my dad, and when he knew it was his time, and what he knew then. My mom was with him. He said, "Tell Steve...I believe in Jesus...I believe in the Lord...and I feel just perfect now." And I thought yes, that is right, I will know that. I will know that. And if I didn't, it wouldn't matter anyway. The One I believe in is greater than what I know. That is why I believe in Him. He does not exist in my thought, I exist in His.