Posted by jonvon on June 20, 2005 at 21:55:46:
In Reply to: Re: Moment of Silence For Win posted by PS on June 17, 2005 at 08:30:21:
so i think maybe win was both called and chosen. i seriously have no idea what that means anymore. all the context for that has been blown out of me. i was always called, i think, and never quite chosen. i was chosen for something else. i keep looking at it. its like, i spun the handle on the jack and the box like i was supposed to, and i got this other thing. i am beginning to have some idea of what it is. sometimes it feels very alien, very cold, very taking me to an alone-place that i think only a few understand. and it feels like me, like the me under my skin me.
but man i miss that guy. i miss you win. if i could have been like you more, life would have been a lot more bearable. at least that is the little story i tell myself sometimes, in between the twilights.