Posted by Xavier on June 26, 2005 at 10:45:46:
This is my all in one comment.
Over the years I have been ignorant and lacking as a friend. I have not called when I said I was going to and been lacking as a friend. I want to make ammends to that, and talk to people more. I am penly sorry Terry and Bill for having wasted your time. I understand that it is a precious commodity and yours need not be wasted waiting for me.
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I went to the John Reuben concert a few nights ago and if any of you know me, you know I can talk and talk and when I start with my questions who knows when you will get out of there, just ask Kat. Anyway there was a local rapper who got up for the open mic, Mr. Reuben did, he was my height and he rapped really well. His name was Saloman. I walked up and just started talking to him, he went into much more depth than I was prepared for and was reminiscent of how PS can rip it to the core.
So again if you know me, imagine that face I get when PS makes a smart joke. Everyone in the room gets it, and I take it litrally. Anyway this Saloman guy talked to me for nearly 2 hours after the concert and something clicked. " I got it ".
Not like a light switch just more of a "gradual wow" it was like all the things I have been learning for the last few years just made more sense. The killer thing was there was no altar call at the show, and I so had Rebuen pegged as the "altar call" guy. The whole night blew me away.
I have walked down the altar isle a few times over the years, though have never gotten it. I talked with PS about a year or so ago, in the back of the little church about, people actually hearing God. I had wondered if I was just "off" for not hearing God in my life. PS always has a way of just helping a person understand.
Well when Saloman was talking to me, I saw that conversation with PS in my mind. Then the whole
faith statement made sense. I have made this simple choice of salvation so much more difficult than it has to be.
Stepping back it is interesting to see that I do not need to "hear" God as an audible voice to understand his will in my life, I feel weird still, like I do not know where to go from here.
Like Data in Star Trek when he gets his emotion chip, he finally gets humor and he is on overload.
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Does anyone here ever do bible studies anymore, I need to fellowship and get my head close to god ?
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Hey do you guys have anyone that I can pray for, I use to have this problem that I talked about how I never knew how to pray for more than a few seconds, not having all the big words. Now I just say simple prayers to God for as many people as I can think of.
- Big Tim